if i ever chose to marry
i think it ill be a super hard choice to make
because i want to love that person
i do not want to hate them i do not want to fight them
or yell at them
or swear at them
or make them feel small
or make them cry
i want to make them strong and love them and prove that
to them
but all i have ever seen of marriage is that it leads to yelling and feeling alone
and i do not want to feel alone especially with that person i am suppose to love
and if i do marry i hope i die first
because if they leave me
alone
and old in an empty house
just facing the reality that there is no time for dreams or adventure left
but that i can not even have you there to make it worth while
well i think that would just be impossible
and so i don't want them to leave me alone
but i feel thats the only option
and it sucks
because i am so afraid of alone
2 comments:
again.
i know what you mean.
marriage is hard,
because you might never know if they truly love you or if you truly love them. it's hard, because we don't really know what love it. it could be anything. and being alone is sometimes easy, sometimes not. it all depends on the day, and your mood, you know? sometimes i don't mind being alone - sometimes i prefer it - but sometimes it's so hard to be alone, like you feel so secluded, like no one cares, like anything could happen to you and they still wouldn't.
we think alike sometimes.
we do don't we
and yes like you said i enjoy being alone sometimes
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